Yes, the words I wrote there have been out in cyber space for more than a decade now. But as I read them again, I see the kernels of the work I am doing now with women.

Like this one…

I remember as a girl of about 12 wondering why I was in my skin. Why was I born into my family and not the family across the road? This wasn't because I didn't like my family but rather I wondered why I was the person I was and not someone else. 40 plus years later I still ask the same question: why am I who I am?

Watching Matthew Cowdrey win yet another gold medal [at 2012 Olympics] did his mum know when he was born with half an arm missing that inside her little baby was a world class athlete? Kurt Fearnley took on the Kokoda Track with only his arms and hands. He's been at three of Paralympics and won heaps of medals and races. Why? Because that's who he is - an adventurous world class athlete.

Susan Boyle, a middle-aged woman from a village in Scotland, got up on stage at Britain’s Got Talent and blew the world away with her “I Dreamed a Dream.” Paul Potts sold phones - who knew he had the most amazing operatic voice! But both had something inside them that pushed them to do more.

Why are these people the way they are? Some with physical limitations; others seemingly too old to ‘make it.’?

And that brings me back to me. Why am I the person I am? Why do I still have dreams that percolate inside me as a middle-aged woman? Perhaps there's no answer than to say that's just the way I am. I was made with these dreams, these desires, these passions and drives. I'll never be a world class athlete. I doubt I'll ever walk the Kokoda Track (let alone on my hands) and I'm sure I'll never sing on a TV talent show.  

But while ever I’m alive I get the chance to discover more of the unique shape that I am, and this blog is part of that. One of the many things in me when I was born is that of a writer - so that's who I am and that's what I do.

And now, a decade on, I understand more of why I am the way I am.

I know my purpose is to guide other women as they take the journey I have - rediscovering and reconnecting with their unique power. 

I can answer my own 'But why?' question.